Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Your Journey



can’t you see it?
it is so clear to me
I see all the road signs
pointing the way
the same signs I followed
choosing for my own future

but you aren’t following them
you seem to deliberately ignore them
choosing instead to find the unmarked trail
are you watching down the road?
didn’t you see the sign for that cliff ahead?

my life is happy
it is all I want for you
glad I chose this route
still walking my road

but you are just starting out
your journey is a long one
are you watching your feet?
not looking ahead?
that is what will get you in trouble
focusing on the moment

how can I let you go?
I want to tie a leash to your wrist
keep you close
and safe
if you head for the cliff
you would be anchored to me

But you cut the ties
you burn your bridges
as you cross them
making a U-turn nearly  impossible

my tears come for your pain
the suffering you find constantly
each crash after climbing too high

I know you are not me
I know you have to choose your own path
but can’t it be a safer one?
one travelled and mapped?
one to a definite outcome?
I can’t see your destination

so I wring my hands
and I pray
letting you go
loving you through the potholes
and the quicksand
and the stinging nettles

Home is here
when you turn to see us
our light will be burning
as a beacon

just know
my heart breaks
watching you
live your own life

November 23, 2011

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

The Juggler


The young man stands centre stage
In his hands
Three
Brightly coloured
Balls

The lights come up
His easy smile draws the crowd in
He’s done this before

In a wave of motion
The balls are expertly tossed
One by one by one
Intricate circles
Made by the bean-filled orbs

The crowd gives polite applause
Acknowledging his skill
But they have seen it done
By him
By others

A stranger emerges from the crowd
Pulling something from his coat pocket
A hacky-sack
Another colourful ball
Close in size to the rest
He tosses it into the mix

The expert Juggler
Not missing a beat
Weaves the projectile
Into the dance
The crowd cheers for the deviation
From the norm

A woman stands
Pulling a child’s beach ball from her bag
Lighter
Larger
She throws it into the path
Of the oncoming balls

The Juggler
Again
Recovering from his shock
Begins to toss the larger ball
With the rest

The difference in weight
And size
Make it hard to meld the new ball
Into the old routine
Keeping him on his toes

The crowd loves it
Now they search their own pockets
For globe-like objects
To be a part of the show

From stage left
A stress ball
From stage right
A tennis ball

The Juggler’s face begins to show
The inner workings of his mind
Franticly working
To stay professional
Cope through the distractions
After all
The crowd has never been this happy
Never cheered this loudly
Before

From right in front of the performer
Someone throws
A perfume bottle
Somewhat round
But not a ball

Heavier
Smaller
 Possible consequences of a mistake
Much worse

The juggler
Barely able to catch it
Holds on tightly
Until the next ball requires his attention
He must let go
Of the delicate piece of glass

The crowd is on their feet
They love the added danger
The break from the ordinary

Another glass bottle is thrown
And another
The balls begin to match the bottles
In number

The poor entertainer
Loving the applause
Dreading the surprises
Pulls off spectacular feats
Twisting and turning
The choreography is changed
For the new coming dancers

Everything is working
Perfectly

Until

The juggler begins to grow weary
His hands feel like oven mitts
His arms muscles burn
The objects are blurring
Hard to tell which
Is soft and forgiving
And which
Is hard and unyielding

A moment comes

He knows he is going to fail
Something must drop
He watches carefully
For the ones
That will be alright
Without his hands
Will be caught by others
Or fall harmlessly
Ready for another try
Another day

But he hates to fail
He loves the applause
The admiring looks
The astonishment
The admiration

He’s never felt those eyes on him
Not in that way

So he tries to hold on
Push a little harder
Ask a little more from his body
And his mind

A few more moments gained
Another round of applause
To feed his tired ego

The first to drop
Was the perfume bottle
The shattering
Was accompanied
By a groan
And a gasp
From the audience
The scent wafted through the air
To proclaim his mistake
To anyone who was near enough
to smell it

The next was a small coloured ball
It rolled from the stage
Into the crowd
Lost under  feet
The Juggler mourned its loss
As it was his own
A personal favourite
One that had helped him learn
His trade

Someone decided
Mercy
Was needed
And cut the lights
On the pending disaster

In the pitch black theatre
The sounds of falling
Crashing
Bouncing
Breaking

And sobbing

And the running footsteps
Fleeing the chaos
Of the performer
Who couldn’t let
Anything
Fall


February 22, 2011