Monday, November 16, 2009
Adoption
A plastic tube
Infused with ink
For the single moment
When tip meets parchment
Ink expelled into fibres
Creating a lasting mark
A permanent vow
A signature
Neatly printed on a scrap of paper
Not just paper
Compressed pulp
With typed words
And signatures
Of grave importance
The responsibility of just one
A name
Not just a name
Letters combined
Into a symbol
For a person
An appellation
To indicate
A human masterpiece
One individual
In a core unit
A family
Not just a family
A home
Laughter and Tears
Shouts and Adoration
Consolation and Correction
Devotion and Love
Woven together
Through history
Through struggle
Through choices
Into an ever changing tapestry
Including each single piece
Not just a piece
A life
Connected to the others
With duct tape
And band-aids
Now pierced
By a needle
Creating a tiny hole
Through which
An unbreakable filament
Is yanked
And pulled
Tightly
Until the ragged edges
Abut those of the others
Overlapping
Puzzle pieces
Fill all the gaps
Left by scars
Hatred
Rejection
So many attempts
To glue this piece
To so many others
But the inevitable holes
Each time
Showed the light of day
But not this time
Each stitch
Expertly sewn
Smoothly creating
An almost unnoticeable seam
Different from the others
In its colour and thickness
But complementary in its design
A permanent home
For the little piece
To grow
And love
And believe
Not a single piece
A part of a whole
The work that was incomplete
Without that piece
Lacking
Unknowingly insufficient
Now beautiful
Strong
Able to add layers
Borders to the outside
Because inside
Cohesive Artwork
Created
By THE Creator
November 16, 2009
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
God's-Eye View
Of all the mysteries
Surrounding
Our creator
Our maker
The Lord of the Universe
The one mystery
That eludes me
Most often
Is the way
He seems to
Like
Me
Most days
I barely like
Myself
Tolerate
At best
My imperfections
Strides towards
Total self-destruction
My utter lack of will power
The inability to change
Anything
About myself
To paraphrase
St. Paul
What I want to do
I can’t manage to pull off
What I want to avoid
Seems to drag me into its path
Seems to surround me
All these failures
These terrible character traits
Seem to be enough
To push away
The friends and acquaintances
Who can’t stand loudmouths
Who judge my devotion to God
Who give me the once over
And cast me aside
Like a second from the factory
To be sold at a discount
To the lower classes
The friendless
Not the popular
Or the In crowd
It is no wonder
That my mirror
Is distorted
I see through their perceived
Eyes
No longer a true image
The flaws hide the beauty
No longer optimistic
Depressed thoughts
Drag me deeper
Into the abyss
Of self-criticism
How does the Maker
Feel about the disparagement
Of his masterpiece?
The quirks and imperfections
He so carefully chose
To compliment
The strengths
To build the character
Of his chosen child
His view is also distorted
He is colour blind
To the shades of
The outer shell
The masks
I wear
He sees only the
Heart
The inner beauty
The passions
Emotions
Intentions
Those I love
The traits I wish
I could show the world
I don’t need to hide
From Him
There would be
No point
He’d find me
I’m on His radar
He knows me best
Yet He still
Likes me
In spite of
Because of
The chinks
In my armour
That allow Him
To get inside
To move inside
My soft heart
My desire?
To see
Me
Through His eyes
To know me
Better
As He knows me
To one day
Like myself
The way God
Likes me
June 30, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
My Apology
It's inevitable
My mouth
The trouble-maker
Getting me into
Sticky situations
Hurting those closest to me
Those I care for
Those who used to care for me
Before
The iron grip
I wish to have
On my tongue
Can never be strong enough
Can never hold the reigns
Turn the steed in the right direction
Away from danger
Ruin
Despair
Apologies
Never enough
Absolutely
The lamest
Most ridiculous
Excuses
There ARE no excuses
My mistakes
My words
Once set free
To roam the air
Seeking ears
Seeking minds
To contaminate
Always the same
A careless comment
Made in humour
Begins the slippery descent
The laughter becomes forced
Awkward
Regret
Never enough words to explain
Never enough time to retrace the steps
To reel it all back in
Take it all back
I know
The pain in my heart
The empty thud
In the pit of my stomach
Must
Be worse than the offense
You feel
Berating my stupidity
Utter lack of self-control
Complete human-ness
Repeated transgressions
The path walked so many times
Now familiar
Rutted by my heavy feet
I wish I could cry
I wish I could use my tears
Salted water
Wash away my shame
My guilt
Clean the slate
But all I have is another word
Completely inadequate
Yet somehow
Poetic justice
That a word is what I cling to
My life preserver
My last hope
Of forgiveness
Rests in a word
Yet to be spoken
Sorry
(June 29, 2009)