It's inevitable
My mouth
The trouble-maker
Getting me into
Sticky situations
Hurting those closest to me
Those I care for
Those who used to care for me
Before
The iron grip
I wish to have
On my tongue
Can never be strong enough
Can never hold the reigns
Turn the steed in the right direction
Away from danger
Ruin
Despair
Apologies
Never enough
Absolutely
The lamest
Most ridiculous
Excuses
There ARE no excuses
My mistakes
My words
Once set free
To roam the air
Seeking ears
Seeking minds
To contaminate
Always the same
A careless comment
Made in humour
Begins the slippery descent
The laughter becomes forced
Awkward
Regret
Never enough words to explain
Never enough time to retrace the steps
To reel it all back in
Take it all back
I know
The pain in my heart
The empty thud
In the pit of my stomach
Must
Be worse than the offense
You feel
Berating my stupidity
Utter lack of self-control
Complete human-ness
Repeated transgressions
The path walked so many times
Now familiar
Rutted by my heavy feet
I wish I could cry
I wish I could use my tears
Salted water
Wash away my shame
My guilt
Clean the slate
But all I have is another word
Completely inadequate
Yet somehow
Poetic justice
That a word is what I cling to
My life preserver
My last hope
Of forgiveness
Rests in a word
Yet to be spoken
Sorry
(June 29, 2009)
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